Return to love

A crosspost from my other journal.

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For the first time again in years. I feel this surge of a rush of excitement and passion through my veins. My hands are shaking as I feel the need to do the things I've always wanted to do. Things like wanting to dance, to sing, to use the guitar and to draw. Hahaha! Actually everything what life has to offer!

I love this feeling.

I remember feeling this when I lay on the sand and looked at the stars at night.

I remember feeling this when I first met my husband.

I remember feeling this when I first saw my son.

I remember feeling this when I first got my walking doll when I was 5.

I remember feeling this when I had to open a pail of boysen paints when I was 6.

I feel so alive. I want this feeling to stay.

I was wrong when I said that Lady Inspiration has left for vacation. All along it was only me who wasn't letting any of this good feeling in my life.

No amount of criticism will crush me as I did before. I will do what I love doing without hurting anybody.

I appreciate what I was and what I will be.

I understand that everything that has happened to my life is my responsibility and I will not blame anyone.

I understand that tomorrow will always be a great day, if only I allow happiness to come in.

Today I will start living life with passion.

Today, I will return to love